the youth within the sun.

The more I think,

the more I feel

Runneth over;

like a tub filled.

Drown in depth

The hole I slept.

This mine of mind

Is a steel

Enclosed in a field.

Oh,

This is how

Getting old feels.

Lose yourself

To find yourself

Become to un-become.

Solve the puzzle

Get the riddle

The youth

Within the sun.

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TODAY’S REFLECTION

I wrote this poem in my late teenage years, during a time when my thoughts were flooding me—drowning me. When worry and the weight of life overwhelmed my mind. Anxiety, back then, felt like falling into a deep hole. At first, I tried to climb out. But eventually, I started making a home in it—rearranging things, trying to get comfortable, convincing myself this was just life. That my thoughts were supposed to be this LOUD.

But as I’ve grown, God has handed me a mirror.

Now, when I read these lines, I see the weight I was carrying. The pressure to figure everything out. To become something. To solve life’s puzzle all on my own. And I realize—it wasn’t just overthinking. It was me trying to live in the world, without the Word.

Today, I know the difference. Living in the world brings confusion, restlessness, and emotional drowning. But living in the Word—God’s Word—brings clarity, peace, and true renewal. "The youth within the sun" is a return to Him. To the light. To the hope He offers when we stop trying to be everything by ourselves.

That’s what this poem means to me now. It’s still honest. It’s still real. But now, I read it as a call to live differently. To let God cleanse my mind. To un-become what the world tried to shape me into—and become who He always called me to be. The Youth within The Sun.

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think.” - Romans 12:2